Theme for September... Surrender
The theme of surrender has been playing out in my life personally for a couple of months. Let's talk about surrender and what it really means.
For a couple of years now I have been writing, rewriting, and attempting to secure a book deal for my third book. The first two had enjoyed limited success. I wanted a little more for this one. I had the book edited by a friend, and then a client, and then another friend, and then finally I bit the bullet and paid a professional editor. I had contacted numerous publishing companies, literary agents, and "book Angels" to assist me and my baby in getting out there. I was promised the moon and experienced numerous rejections.
At some point in June or July I surrendered. I acknowledged that maybe I was going to have to take the reins and publish it myself.
That was not the end.
About two weeks ago, due to an incident involving a ladder, a husband, and two kayaks, I dislocated my knee. I was forced to lay down the reins of my life and allow myself to be waited on, hand and foot, literally.
And now we enter September. September is the ninth month of the year. In numerology "9" is the number of endings. Surrender.
Add that to our "4" year (2020=2+0+2+0=4) and we end up at 13. In the tarot, the #13 card is the "death" card.
A lot of people are afraid of the Death card, but rarely does the appearance of this card indicate physical death. Death is about surrender. It is about allowing something or someone who is no longer "life" to you to move on.
Coincidentally, or not, because nothing is ever REALLY a coincidence, I happened upon a meditation involving SURRENDER. In this meditation, you connect with Divine Energy and allow the presence of the Divine to completely come into your being. You surrender. No agendas. No requests. No questions. No manifesting. No attracting your highest good. No expectations.
This is what I learned. Surrender to the Divine has the affect of completely accepting your life for what it is. Right here. Right now. Spontaneously you are filled with gratitude. For the people in your life. The difficult ones and the treasured ones. For the plants in the window and the pillows that caress your head at night while you rest. For the color of the paint on the wall. Suddenly the past seems not nearly so tragic and the future not nearly as scary. If you find yourself in the middle of a meltdown, you embrace it. Your body is not nearly as flawed and your hair looks fine first thing in the morning before its combed. It is all beautiful.
This September we also find the synchronistic event of having five and sometimes six planets in retrograde. I am not an astrologer but retrogrades are periods of time when planets appear to go backward in the sky. They symbolize slowing down. Rest. One step forward, two steps back. And that's okay.
Just for the month of September, let us lay down our agendas. Let us set aside our grievances. Let us appreciate the gift of life. Let us love one another. Black, white, yellow, tan, male, female, "other" political party, "other" belief system, "other" nationality.
If a person or a job or a dream has disappointed you, let it go. Bless it (him, her) as they leave your life. Don't hold on so tight that you end up strangling your highest good. It may be him,her, or it, and it may not be. And it is okay.
I am not saying you spend the whole month doing nothing. If you feel inspired, by all means, go for it! But allow everything to enter and leave your life with the understanding that life is impermanent. There are some things that you can't control or make happen no matter how many positive affirmations, prayers, or spells you repeat.
Surrender is necessary before any real breakthrough. We have to be willing to let go of what we really really want in order to bring in what is really really in line with our soul.
What is that old saying?
If you really love something, let it go. If it comes back, it's yours. If it doesn't, it never really was to begin with.