Healing the Jesus Wound
Recently I was reflecting on my trip to Greece last September, which, if you are a regular reader on my blog, you know that this particular trip was suggested to me by Jesus himself, who showed up one day in my meditations.
Just to recap a little, about twenty-five or so years ago, I had my one and only dream where Jesus showed up and interacted with me directly. At that time I was struggling in almost every way possible. I was becoming disillusioned with the faith I had been born into. My marriage was miserable. I was struggling financially. I was in denial about my battle with depression, which my doctor had suggested to me but I rejected, because, hey, Christians aren't supposed to be depressed. Isn't Jesus supposed to free us from all that?
So I had this dream. In the dream I was in line to be baptized. It was a long line and I was near the back. We were in some sort of outside setting. I looked to my right and to my amazement there was Jesus standing next to me! No one else seemed to see him, which was odd, since we were all in line to be baptized, but nevertheless, there he was.
Jesus said to me, "What are you doing?"
"I am in line to be baptized." I replied.
"Well," he said, "You can stay here if you want to, but I am going to Greece."
Obviously, I immediately got out of line and followed Jesus.
And then, I woke up.
Not a long dream, but a powerful one.
At that time, due to my financial and life struggles, I decided that the dream was probably symbolic. I could not afford to go to Greece. Soon after the dream, I began to delve into other belief systems and spiritual paths and eventually, left my church, my husband, and Jesus behind in the rubble of my past.
Fast forward twenty-something years. I am happily remarried. I am living my best life. I am a full time spiritual healer and messenger. I have written four books on spiritual subjects. One of those books chronicles my on-again-off-again friendship with Jesus, at His request, by the way. It took a bit of convincing before I would agree. But all-in-all, Jesus and I are good.
One day I am meditating and Jesus shows up! In the meditation he is standing on a road that I recognize as Greece. He says to me, "It took you long enough to get here."
I am there with him. Oh. Did he really want me to go to Greece?
So in September a friend and I made a sort of pilgrimage to Greece. It was an amazing experience.
I had some very large expectations of my trip to Greece, and I do feel like I had a really big shift of some sort, but I can't say I ever ran into Jesus while I was there. I found the road I saw him on in my meditation, but I did not really have any major interaction with him.
Where was he?
I will admit I was a little upset when I didn't run into Jesus in Greece. There was a little trigger inside me that whispered in my ear, "See. You can't trust Jesus. He invited you to Greece and then He didn't show up. Just like all those years ago when He didn't show up when you needed Him."
Healing from religious trauma appears to be a work-in-progress, even for me, a spiritual healer and communicator.
When I began to research this topic, I was surprised to learn that people can be certified religious trauma therapists. There is a whole field of trauma experts whose main field is religious trauma? Who knew?
All I knew was that buried beneath all those years of healing work I have done on myself and others, deep inside myself I wasn't sure if I could trust Jesus.
I will admit that I suddenly realize that this may take a little more than a five minute chit-chat.
If the title of this blog post triggered you at all, made you feel a bit uncomfortable, angry, or perhaps even jabbed you in your soul, then you may have a Jesus wound.
This is a wound that many people will deny, resist, or hide in the closet. Who wants to admit they are angry at Jesus? (Feel free to substitute "Jesus" with any religious figure, deity, or spiritual belief.) Jesus is supposed to be the healer, not the cause of trauma. So first there is the trauma, then the emotions surrounding the trauma, then the anger, then the guilt for feeling angry, and maybe even a fear of feeling the way you do, because then, what if you are punished for how you feel?
The Jesus wound is a bit tricky, then, because it is wrapped up in shame, and fear, and guilt, and anger, and a ton of other emotions. Add to that the social pressure if your primary relationships are still devoted to their faith.
Whether or not you throw the Consciousness we know as Jesus in the same boat with the religion that claims to represent him, if you have been living here on the Earth plane for any amount of time, you must realize that the wound associated with this person is very real. The Jesus most of us were introduced to by the church that embraces his name and story is very different from the Presence of the Christ, but many of us have been wounded and we lump them both together in a bundle wound that I call the Jesus Wound.
If you suffer from a Jesus wound, know that you are not alone! There are many who have not only woken up from the slumber of spiritual manipulation, but have healed and are thriving!
Yes, Jesus and I still have some work to do, but we are working through it!
If you have been wounded in some way by your faith, your religion, or those who claim to represent the Divine, you can heal from these wounds!
The first step is admitting the trauma.
Because we are so conditioned to give our power away to a Higher Power, this may take a little work. For now, try just saying to yourself, or writing down what you felt when you were wounded.
Finish this sentence: "Jesus, I felt wounded when this happened......"
Spill your guts. Yell. Scream. Cry. Get it out. If you have written it down, then decide if you want to keep a journal on your progress, or perhaps dispose of the paper in some way that gives you closure. After you are done, imagine Divine Love pouring down on you, and in you, into every cell in your body.
Say, "I am loved. I love and appreciate myself. I am enough. I am free."
This is a very simplified short exercise that does not eliminate the need for a deep healing session, therapy, or other inner healing methods. In the near future I will be addressing this subject in a deeper way and from various angles. I think it is time we release the shame that comes with religious wounding. It is time to know we are safe. The Divine is not a Hammer in the Sky waiting to pound on us for every little infraction.
One of the reasons I don't use the term "God" or even "Jesus" most of the time when doing healings and sessions is because each of us has our own ideas of what those words mean and we have all been affected in various ways by religion and religious people. I believe that the Creator of All Things is Love, and anything that does not come from a place of love is not God. A lot of what we have been taught and what has been written is not even true, no matter what ancient texts proclaim. I am not going to drop dead for challenging ancient spiritual texts. These texts were written in the context of a culture and a society that had a very different understanding of reality.
Now is the time to take back our power and understand that we are the Divine living in a human body and we are not victims as we have been led to believe. People who are fearful are people who are easy to control. Much of what has wounded us in religion is an attempt to control or exercise power over the masses. It really wasn't even personal.
Whatever you choose as your spiritual practice, and whatever belief system feels good to you, honor that faith! I am not here to challenge your beliefs or say that any particular religions or faiths are wrong or evil. Whatever faith or belief system you choose to adopt or align yourself with, you must agree that there are some people who have taken that belief and wounded others or used their spiritual understanding in a non-beneficial way. If your faith feels good to you and you feel love and acceptance in the practice of your faith while also honoring and accepting others who may believe differently, then keep doing what you are doing!
Love is my religion. Embrace and embody all the good and wonderful and kind aspects of your faith and begin to heal all those wounds from every moment that didn't feel good and wounded you in some way. Let us all love ourselves and each other enough to recognize that we all have our own unique experiences based on our upbringing, our ancestry, our experiences and how we interpreted those experiences. Imagine Love pouring into all those places in your soul that remembers the pain and still prickles when that wound is jabbed.
Over the next few months, I will be addressing this topic in a larger conversation. There is a lot more to the Jesus Wound than a short blog post.
It is time for us to separate the myth of Jesus from the real presence of a Divine representation of a higher consciousness. It is time to stop justifying our less-than-loving behavior by claiming some affiliation with a faith that is a far cry from the person who ate and drank with the outcasts of society and challenged the religious dogma of his day. It is time to heal the wounds inflicted on us by those who attempt to shame us, control us, and manipulate us through fear.
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Let us all love each other.
"May all beings everywhere be happy and free, and may the thoughts, words, and actions of my life contribute in some way to the happiness and freedom for all."
Sanskrit Prayer for Peace (Lokah Samastah Sukhino Bhavantu)
